03. A short story

Heavy japanese hip hop music blasts through her earphones, drowning out the heavy downpour outside. Nursing a beer can in hand, she contemplates today’s turn of events.

Being to a place where she didn’t really want to go ever again.

Reaching a place where she felt so alone, despite the crowds that come and go, the conversations had and forgotten.

Desperately trying to find something that will change it all.

The music just isn’t loud enough. Turning the volume up, she shrinks back further into the safe shelter she’s built for herself.

逃げちゃだめ!わかるけど。。。 いつも同じだ。

Draining the can, the bitterness of the dregs resonates within her deeply, reminding her that whatever she is isn’t trying to do isn’t working.

But she’s just so, so tired.


02. of work and desserts

It’s been a while. Lately I’ve been working a lot at the airport, アルバイトする. The pay’s decent for a part-time job, even though it can’t be compared to that of Japan’s, but it really saps my energy. 8 hours of standing and serving customers in heels is no joke. The only thrill I get from working is when I get to speak to Japanese customers in Japanese. While some are a little unfriendly, most of them are rather nice. Some even thought that I was Japanese, and a kind lady encouraged me on my Japanese language studies. I’m still striving to be fluent in Japanese one day. The only problem I face is my tendency to not use keigo (敬語) when speaking to customers, mostly because I’m not used to speaking in keigo. At least I’ve succeeded in eliminating tamego (タメ語) when speaking, because it’s so casual it might seem impolite to the Japanese customers. When I was working here last year I never noticed that there were so many Japanese customers. Now there would be at least a few each day. Time to work on my Japanese!

Speaking of which, I’ve also signed up for jlpt n3 level. Technically my classes have only taught me til n4 level, so I’ll need to do a lot of self-study in order to pass. It’s a good thing I’m going to be stopping my part-time job after this month. When I’m working I get so exhausted even on my off-days I rarely have the motivation as energy to drag myself to the library or Starbucks to study.

On a dance-related note, I have finally managed to master the first verse and chorus of Miss A’s Goodbye Baby v(^_^v)♪ Will get around to videotaping it one day. Haven’t been dancing much because of work and because I don’t go to school much, of at all. Bah. I really want to learn exo-k’s history’s dance too. There’s so awesomely talented for a rookie group. *__*

I’ve also been trying to listen to more jpop songs as an attempt to learn more Japanese vocabulary. Latest songs on my playlist are from Hatsune Miku, AKB48, and m-flo~ Am going to slowly explore more artists as I go along. I lost most of my anime opening and ending songs when my hard disk drive crashed on me. Still miss the nostalgic feeling I get whenever I listen to a PoT or FMA song. You got game~ どんなスピードの中も時間は変わらないリズム刻んで〜♪ Gosh my fangirling days seem ages ago.

Going to end off with a photo of Marriott’s dessert bar at their international buffet dinner! Went there for my brother’s birthday dinner. The spread was decent, although the seafood not that fantastic. But I liked the roasted section where they had roast beef, pork and lamb, as well as their pastries. Other than that, i’ll give it a 6.5/10. I’ve had had better buffets then this one.